Looking Towards the Future

As I write this I am finally closing down my email and note taking applications after a long day of writing, planning and emailing potential supervisors for my PhD. It’s been exhausting today; I’ve been putting a lot of effort into getting this done today instead of putting it off. I’ve been thinking about just how I’ll do research, what areas I want to look into and if certain comparisons are viable and not just my brain making up mush again.

It’s been an odd day, being sat in one place continuously while I work, occasionally looking up to take a sip of my latte and then going back to typing. Somewhere during all of this it got dark outside, and at some other point my drink went cold and my wrap has now become my dinner instead of my lunch.

I’m not sure how all of this works. I’ve been emailing people to see if someone will have me, because that’s all I know at the moment. I’ve looked into funding but I’m not sure what, if anything, actually applies to me. I’m not sure how things are going to work this year, let alone next when I’m hopefully starting my studies. I don’t have a solid place I want to go, of course I’ve got preferences, but I’m not set on somewhere specific and nowhere else. I don’t know if I’ve messed up and left things too late. I don’t know if I’m doing things too early.

There’s a lot of uncertainty right now with all of this. I have my PhD thesis idea in mind, planned out in my note taking software and I have everything organised for the later bits before I’ve even got the confirmation I can do this with someone. It’s felt a bit hopeless at points today, especially the waiting period after sending that email.

So today has been a day of looking towards and working towards the future I want. It’s been strange and I’m not quite sure if I’ll ever feel like I got it, but right now, I’m doing my best.

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